There was a time when i believed that men could have their hold on me
that they could click their fingers and i would be the one to please
that my decisions would be stained with all the things they had to say
i couldnt leacve my house my room without them standing in my way
but in the years to come i'd find out all these ways to smash them down
to free myself of all the bullshit that i'd built my life around
but still to this day

Im terrified of what you can do to me
and this fear consumes me whether i'm awake or asleep
im aware of the restrictions that you have on my life
and if i defend myself with my fist or my knife
then you're there in the courtroom waiting to see me cry
well i am going to fucking cry

so this year i found out that pretty much most of my friends
have been raped or abused in the dirty hands of cis men
that everything they knew and trusted crashed all around them
now they're picking up the pieces but they havent quite found them
so now we're trying to support each other but we dont always know how
because from every angle we are faced with shame and disempowerment
and just when we think we're ready to live our lives again
well you go and do it again, well you go and do again!
So still to this day

i know you like to think of the stranger in the alley
of the psychopath with no self control in the movies
well i hate to break it to you but it may just be your son
your nice guy of a friend or your sweet loving husband
when society raises us to take whatever we want
and that men are valid humans expected to be more dominant
that our needs only matter if we have a dick to assert them with
and that consent is just a killjoy word to ruin perfect moments with
if you dont get permission then that makes you a rapist
if they're drunk asleep your partner or last night they wanted it
there are no excuses there are no blurred lines
so get the fuck away form em and let me get on with my life
cause it may take months or it may take years
and there may never come a day where we dont shed our tears
but we are powerful we are beautiful we are better than you'll ever be
you better watch out for your fucking life cause you are now the enemy
so still to this day

you should be terrified of what we can do to you
on the streets and in our bedrooms the power no longer lies with you
if you're horny and you tell yourself that you are entitled
well tell your friends to come and visit you in hospital
cause you have to learn somehow these bodies are ours and ours alone
now do you understand when i say no?